Get to f**k #2

i can see this becoming a regular thing but todays thing that has annoyed me is that a few of my mates keep asking what my msn pm of "Hazel (L)" means. well for a start the (L) will be shown on there screen as a nice little heart. So whats not to get? im sending a nice little message to someone special.

The next thing that is annoying me is on the same subject. People asking me about my relationship status or assuming it for me. I don't care what you think if i did i'd ask all i care about is that im spending time with someone special and having a good time doing it. When people get hung up i get hung up. so it generally just annoys me. Either keep your nose out or listen when i try explain.

And the final thing is when people say things like "oh Ian how comes you never talk about your girlfriend" - there are a few reasons. I do talk about hazel (all good things :P hazel) when there is a real reason to. I dont want to bring her up in conversations where its not needed like most people do about people. It's just pointless and nobody cares and it gets to a point everyone is rolling there eyes. Plus i dont really see why i should tell people who dont actually know her things about her... it'd really freak me out if i met someone and they could tell me stuff about me and i didnt know how they knew...its just weird. People are never happy if i did talk about her they'd say aww i never shut up about her. I mean a few of my friends even rolled there eyes when they asked me who i was texting so imagine if i didnt shut up?.
any way this is another wee rant brought to a close im going to go do something fun like watch a dvd play skate 3 rather than sit and moan to a blog site.

Get to f**k

I'm back here as an outlet. . . i dont mind the one follower i have knowing how i feel <3

Today i have almost came to a complete outburst i feel like shit. sitting in my room on a complete downer. It's not just today thats caused this i had an amazing day went to a record fair picked up some amazing vinyl took some amazing pictures and in general had a blast finally felt like i'm living again. I know i'm being stupid. when i've been down lately most of the people around me have been there quickly enough to tell me i'm being stupid infact i am fed up of being told to man up and move on. So thats the first Get to fuck! i am me if you don't like that sometimes i don't know how to handle things or at least say that you don't wanna hear it or you think I'm moaning a little to much. theres a politer way that doesn't make the recipient of what you have just said feel bad.

''"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Another thing that has been grinding my gears that was properly brought to my attention today is people making up problems. I genuinely love anyone i call my friend so i dont see why you like as much getting the negative attention from me when im feeling really shit for you fair enough i might be a little more open and come across as nicer. I'm not being nicer im just being more open. I like to tell people nice things when i feel appropriate not when your just fishing for a fucking compliment. so get to fuck. this also includes people who are pretending to feel shit for jokes or be angry for jokes or things like that grow to fuck up and stop mucking with my head. its not something i want my friends to do.

Another thing is I'm tired of being a people pleaser. I'm fed up of being in environments when i cant really open up and tell my friends what i think in worry of them being a dick. for example when someone asks an opinion from me im a generally honest person you must be able to see my mouth defying my face when im lying through my teeth cause if i dont you'll go off on one. this is not something i plan to do much longer get to fuck.

I'm gonna draw this to a close there are about seven or eight more in me but for tonight i've got theese ones out